The process of treating cancer is very painful. The people of China, if you keep this belief, you will have to spend money to treat cancer until you have no money. The patient not only then has to endure the pain of cancer and the pain of relatives and treatment. What I feel the most is that the patient's hair falls out at a visible rate during the chemotherapy process until the head is bald. The doctors say that some medication brings side effects other than the disease to the patient under certain circumstances. For me, being a bystander recording the process of prolonging life. People have to face pain every day and pray for one more day to live. Every day we see despair day after day, maintaining unnecessary pain. Compared with the inability to fall asleep, inability to go to the toilet, inability to exercise, and inability to eat. Normal treatment can give people a chance to return to a normal life. On the contrary, stage 4 cancer patients have to continue to face all the pain after they wake up, or that they have not slept at all, they have no normal life, and only their relatives in pain have to wash their faces with tears every day is not a happy thing. Whether you die or live, it is hell.
After going through all these things, I am also reflecting on myself, and how should I will look after myself. When our obsession with surviving and living turns into a shape that is medicine to treat our diseases, it is not only a material component for our treatment but also our hope for life. Medicine is the patient's obsession to live and the fear of death. This project is more like their mumbling and a record of emotions and therapy, how am I going to live? How long can I live? This kind of thing is a bolt from the blue for everyone. So far, I have a lot of fear and anxiety about whether I can live tomorrow. The living people have always been in the same state - alive, but one day the doctor gave you a diagnosis and you only have three months left to live, what would you choose? Would you rely heavily on medicine to prolong your life? Or accept the reality, what will happen when you actually meet?
The change of the shape of medication is also in five stages of grief, recording the process from people unable to accept reality to being forced to accept reality. For example, drugs have become our obsession with life. We are wandering in the choice between life and death. I put this emotional change on the shape change of the medicine. This medicine is no longer a treatment process, but also a change in the patient's attitude towards life obsession. With this record, I want more people to know that it is to write about the pain of cancer patients and to reflect on the value of medical care and the meaning of life in this situation. So that more people can pay attention to the relationship between cancer patients' emotions and medicine.
